Exorcising Demons With ID! Days 251 to 300
Day 251
Just like any other day today.
I race against time to complete my workout before my kids get up. It is a motivator, but it sucks sometimes. Therefore, I’ll begin my new business over the weekend, and I can’t wait to regret it and love it later!
Day 252
As I’ve stated previously, weekends are my enemy to maintain whatever the fuck this whole charade is.
I haven’t begun yet on what I want to start, but I keep moving to make it all worth it. I pulled the skin around my stomach and saw the stretch marks I had ignored throughout this process. They’ve never bothered me, and they never will. It was good to know that I am changing little by little.
Day 253
‘Tis the “sleep naked and cover yourself in a thick blanket” season, and I’m here for it.
As I assess this last day of doing the same ole thang, I am fullying looking forward to the results that are soon to come. I have probably done this routine four times before, and it was tighter than a motherfucker. What makes it different from the past is that the things I did in the past are no longer those I do in the present. So I know this time will be much more different and rewarding to my body and mind. It won’t be easy; good thing I’m not too fond of easy things.
Day 254
Fall came in like a bat out of hell and brought up a cold wind that goes right through you. Either way, I was into doing all of the nonsense that pushed me to be the best physically I could be.
I began the weeks two & three stretching routines that I will be doing until December. It was as easy as the week one movements, but I wasn’t ready for where my jelly would be moving.
Squats are nowhere near over and done with, so this warm-up, along with my mandatory 40-minute walk, was a perfect precursor for day one of Core De Force’s cardio blasting workout that will put me where I need to be by the end of the month and beyond.
Day 255
Today is cold and wet, just like me.
Day 2 of Core De Force began like any other day, but when the room feels nippy, it’s challenging to work your way up to get warm. The sets are much more enjoyable now that I put Joel and Jerico on mute. Their chemistry is questionable since they have different styles of fitness. The banter was okay the first couple of times, but now it’s maddening.
It’s been over a month since school began, and I am still figuring out how to busy myself with new and existing learning courses. I can’t rush this flow. The time in between working out is kept busy with non-learning practices. A change will be coming in the house of flies.
Day 256
Life is slowed down to a snail’s pace today. No school for the kids, and it’s raining again outside.
The hyperbolic stretching intermediate levels are more demanding than I anticipated, but I drilled through them for my aspirations of sitting on it while doing a split.
Squats are approaching almost 50 days of invisible chair sitting or week 9 of free tickets to asstroland. I let the idea roll around my mind of skipping Core De Force today since I didn’t have my 40-minute walk warm-up, but I need to busy myself doing something that isn’t cooking and cleaning for 30 minutes.
Day 257
A break from squats made no difference to my day today.
It is all coming back to me now. The first week of the force is hard when you’re trying desperately to match the cast’s energy. Smiling through the pain when you’re jumping a foot in the air is fucking unrealistic in any workout situation.
Champagne problems.
Day 258
It’s been long enough in this journey that I can award myself with a “cheat day.” Although this is a practice I do every day on social media, I take a break from the typical breakfast of 3 to 4 boiled eggs for a gross ass sausage, egg, and cheese sandwich from my neighborhood deli. I know nothing is wrong with this, but I would only eat these after a night of drinking. Since I no longer drink, I am to figure out what part of my body this is the best serving. In the end, the answer is me. I’m getting tired of just eggs. And to be honest, it feels good to taste something I haven’t made for a change.
The break from squats was an opportunity for the challenge to increase the time for each exercise. This morning’s set felt great, mainly due to my yesterday’s work in Core De Force.
Next is the weekend of doing more of the same, just on a different plane of existence.
Day 259
And just like that, I sleep for 12 hours for no reason.
The weekends do awaken the lazy-ass in me. All my routines are pushed back to a time when I can guzzle down pale blood and eat according to my energy level. They all get done, and that’s the most important thing.
Day 260
No early bird getting any worms this Funday.
I don’t have much to do but take my kids to a street fair that occurs every year during the fall in our town. It’s nothing to write home about, and besides, the kids won’t be kids for long.
Day 261
Manic is how this Monday begins.
The up-and-at-it attitude didn’t kick in for three more hours after awakening. I slugged through side splits, zoned out during squats, and powered through MMA Speed like I was on speed.
It’s all in a day’s work.
Day 262
Today’s ritual slugged its way awake to a squat-less start, and I still managed to get my sweat on before the many tasks I had to do.
My reapproach to knitting is getting snagged by my inability to get to it during the day when I would be able to concentrate on it more. My bedtime routine is nonexistent because I fall asleep at the drop of a dime.
This will all be settled when I get my shit together and put it all in a bag.
Day 263
When I feel that there is less on my plate, I take that time to add what is gone.
I will begin knitting again because it opens me up to more ways of finding the time to learn times two. I started it in tandem with building resilience, lessons I needed to know, but they were never completed because I had another priority in mind. Time has passed, and I am of sound mind to get back on that track.
The mornings could go better if I work on a goal of making my shoulder cover to ease the chill before the warm-up. Stretching has its ups and downs since it’s not my main focus, although I am grateful it is short. Squats are going past the 15-minute mark and sweating to the muted arm flailing and leg swinging is doing this girl well!
Day 264
The intention to start earlier than I already do was there today in my mind, but my body had other plans.
Halfway into week two of CdF, I’m getting tired of it already. Not that I’m going to stop, it’s the familiarity of it that makes it so mundane. I sweat my ass off, and maybe it’s just hump I have to plow through to make it all worth it all over again. I know one thing is for sure it is helping in more ways than one.
Day 265
Weekdays have this way of getting you off of your ass and get shit done. Having too much caffeine has the same effect.
The work never ends on the glute front, making this my eleventh week creating the ass I already have into a better one to get deeper discounts than AARP. I doubled my step count by going on a much-needed flower power run to see what my local shops have to offer.
All I am looking forward to this weekend is relaxation, and I will do anything to achieve it.
Day 266
My unwillingness to see the benefit of waking up just a little bit early on the weekends is getting out of hand. I know I can pause from binge drinking and fasting, but to fall off it for even a day disrupts my flow. Thankfully there isn’t much to do but wait, and waiting is the easy part.
After a chance encounter, my weekend officially began with an edible that I could not refuse. Front split, a hundred squats, and some power sculpting later, I was in la la land with my eyes rolling in my head, ready to try this “relaxing” thing.
Weekends are not for the weak.
Day 267
Today is a great follow up from yesterday’s blur and the lack of activity I have been granted due to good timing. Taking this day to reflect and revise the week ahead.
Day 268
This morning I awoke with an “up and at em” attitude but finished my early routine with more than enough time to cool down until it was time to go outside.
I am becoming familiar again with the exercise video lengths and how much effort I need to put into them. It’s not a good motivator, but once I start the engine, there is no stopping me.
Day 269
I repeated the same motions yesterday and like where this is going. I spend most of the minutes after waking to contemplate all my life choices and checking my phone or playing games, and I get what I need to do with time to enjoy my coffee before it gets cold.
The hyperbolic stretching is getting better and better by the day. The following steps are to take more time performing those moves along with another exercise or previous routine not to get burned out.
Core De Force is on its 16th day, and I’ve already tired of it. Don’t get me wrong, its practical, but my familiarity doesn’t give me the element of dreaded surprise versus an entirely different challenge. The good thing is that I have so much to choose from. Since time is no issue after I’ve walked nearly 2 miles on the way back home, the winter months will be a fun discovery period.
Day 270
This is the third day just getting down with my fitness right out of bed, and it is the best thing ever. My energy upon waking is always the same; dazed, confused, and cold. The chill soon leaves me once I put my legs in the air and squeeze the air out of my belly.
Today is also my reintroduction to knitting since my long break from learning. It’s the perfect time of the year for what I feel to be a meditative hobby that I can do for hours on end. Unlike working out, I can listen to a book, be high, and make a blanket—a full-circle stitch.
Day 271
I came out swinging my legs today with the same ‘ole shit.
The only thing I did differently was not doing what was on the Core De Force calendar. Also, I may have skipped over a day, or I’m just an idiot.
My eating habits have fallen off since I’m in the funk of not wanting to cook or prepare meals like I once did in the past. It’s all about balance, and I will get that balance back in no time.
Day 272
Fridays should feel like a relief from all the madness that I endure, but it doesn’t have that same flair they once used to.
I completed whatever I needed during the early morning hours and got to do what was much needed around the house for things to go as smoothly as possible for the weekend.
My Core De Force patterns have been shifted due to me crossing off or omitting a challenge because I either didn’t want to do it or didn’t have it in my video queue. My pores drowned in sweat, and I felt their pain.
Day 273
Ingesting edibles should come with a suggested food to pair them with.
I took it upon myself to guess the proper dosage for my size and probable tolerance threshold for a gal. To say that I enjoy it when my eyes spiral around in my head would make me sound like a speed freak, so the relearning and constant coaching by my inner voice to remember to breathe is a note to bring it a level down to make basic tasks more enjoyable.
Week 12 is approaching for my ultimate squat challenge, and I will say that it does take that long and beyond to get results. Your anaconda will want seconds and thrids from these buns, hun.
Day 274
Not as lazy today as I was yesterday since I’ve got some of the life fused back into me after my massive trip down the rabbit hole.
Nothing left to do but take it easy and do some knitting to a book or a movie today. Then finally, get ready for another week until it’s okay to dress up like an idiot.
Day 275
The night slipped away in the blink of an eye. It could have been the edible-filled weekend or that I can get up at 5 am without any problems when it’s showtime.
Cold and wet mornings are something I’m used to since I sweat the bed. It’s gross, but I feel it’s my body’s way of wanting out of its form and mutating into something more functional, like a reversible jacket.
All the right moves were made to start the day. The rain came and is here to stay for the next few days.
Day 276
I was delighted to awaken to the fog-filled sky, giving me the proper seasonal feeling of the unknown. The landmarks looked doomed and gloomy in their silent hill haze, a real sight.
I lessened my routine today because I had a morning rendezvous that involved considerable walking. I still felt the burn come the evening when I couldn’t stand longer than a few minutes.
Day 277
After a well-rested night, I am relieved that the pause from squats is on today, the day before I chaperone my son’s trip. Core De Force is nearing the end of its run, and I plan on continuing and pairing it with the remainder of the squat challenge that does not have that far to go.
I am enjoying the hell out of this.
Day 278
Today was a test in the skill of stamina.
It was a busy day as a chaperone, and I hadn’t done it in so long, and I had utterly forgotten how uncomfortable the seats on school buses were. Overall, it was a nice, short day in the city on the Upper West Side.
My steps got a slight pep with over 15 thousand recorded, and my legs are fucking wrecked!
Day 279
Thankful for the cold burst in temperature to wake up to this morning. Even with this bit of good news, I started late with my challenges because getting up was tough. The walk back home helped me decide what I should do upon my return home.
Along with the usual tasks that look to be completed on any Friday, all will be well by the time the clock strikes 1.
Day 280
Gotta love the late start, right?
I sat this one out for a large portion of the day due to a scheduled Grandma visit. I can’t, in all honesty, do anything without me waking up to the open floor. However, I completed all I wanted to achieve and spent the remainder of the evening numb and relaxed.
Day 281
I had gotten an earlier start than I did the previous day but accomplished nothing but getting my stomach full of deliciously tender veal.
Considering my day was relaxing, I took the day off entirely from exercise.
All will begin again tomorrow.
Day 282
Halloween!
The only day I can wear my dragon onesie and not get a second glance. I did get to do my routine before my day began with another scheduled event. Core De Force is in its final stretch, and I will keep up with it for as long as the squat challenge is active. I have less than 20 days, and I know it will be a breeze.
Day 283
The sins of my past weekend are catching up with me.
I haven’t been getting enough sleep as of late, thus resulting in my lackluster performance. I’m too hard on myself. I got my ass up at the usual early time that I do, and I started late because I was still tired from last night’s movie watching. I’m seeing how important sleep is after being on this schedule. Getting back on track tonight should set me straight.
Day 284
I don’t know what it’s called when you take deep consideration of the type of workout you want to do based on your mood. No one is ever happy to be in eventual pain and sweat body piss. My apprehension to burn fat without burning because of acne issues is driving me insane, and I can take it like I take everything else.
The squat challenge is reaching the home stretch, with just about two weeks to go. All ten movements have reached their 1-minute and 25-second mark to conclude at a burning minute and a half for all quad-related torture. I will miss this challenge but move on to another, much shorter one that fits my quad-busting needs.
My relationship with Core De Force is also waning. As always, I forget there are other programs out there that I am comfortable using as long as it’s not 40 minutes of relearning the breathing cycle.
Everything will come together.
Day 285
I am beginning to get back on my full night’s sleep bullshit.
The last days of the ultimate squat challenge are nearing, and I could not be prouder of myself. It is as hard as it sounds. My knees have taken a lot in the process, but to progress, there can be no stopping unless there is pain. Aches here and there don’t halt me in my tracks, so I keep on.
At the same time, Core De Force’s days are numbered, and I will move on with another program I started and stopped. I know I can keep at it before I lose any speed. I just have to pass by a mirror for motivation.
Day 286
I made this day an errand day. The weather was pleasant to schlepp around without any error to my cause. Another smoke shop opened in my shopping area, and I made another weekend purchase to help my helpless cause. I did take the liberty to smoke a J as I began shopping, and buying more was a blessing in disguise.
All I ever do is move. I feel like I am a lazy person, but that’s because I am not applying more of my most important skills on paper. My health and fitness are a priority, and I tend to ignore my body when there is noticeable pain. The first J helped me get through the entire shopping trip, and upon returning home and putting all that shit away, I had the energy to clean the house as I usually would on any Friday. So to celebrate my no-pain feeling, I had another J that made me relax for the remaining hours until I had to strut that ass back outside to get my babies.
No Core De Force today, and I already did one hell of a workout out in the concrete jungle.
Day 287
All I ever want to do on these days are sleep.
And that’s precisely what I did—my reward for all that work from the day before. Unfortunately, I suffered a headache caused by the flowering flowers that were placed close by me as I prepped food to cook for the day, as they were waiting to be watered in the sink.
It’s a horrible feeling caused by a plant that makes me feel so damn good.
Day 288
Daylight saving time is bullshit; the only good thing about it is the jokes.
Day 289
It’s always essential to maintain the routine, even on days when the speed goes slower than you’re used to.
Errands were run and stomped on like the bitch it is.
Day 290
A scheduled day off came with a scheduled appearance. Not too far off the beaten path of a typical day.
Day 291
This morning was just what I needed to confirm that I was awake.
Today begins the five final days of the ultimate squat challenge! I couldn’t be more proud. This was hard as hell. Even though the squat, lunge, and jumping-based movements are the most commonly used exercise programs, the timed focus made it much more challenging. I can’t wait to see what I will do next.
Day 292
Today is my Friday this week, so all I do is clean.
My cold shoulder towards Core De Force is apparent since I haven’t revised it in over a week. I looked at the many videos I downloaded from Kasia a while back, and it seems like something I’d try.
The five final days of the ultimate squat challenge are here! Usually, I would have four consecutive days and then a break, but they set it up to use that rest day to end it. I don’t see this as a bad thing. With all the movements to be done in one minute and thirty seconds, I get why it’s a challenge.
Day 293
I like waking up in my bed/couch on a day of no school.
I failed miserably because I wanted to make a good time completing all my exercises. Checking e-mails, playing games, and looking up movies is what I did instead. The fortunate thing is that the kids slept in and gave me a break.
There are a couple more days until I choose another program, and I may go back to weights or combine added tools for resistance. We shall see!
Day 294
Today was the second day of a long 3-day weekend, so I kept it a relaxing day of relaxation and meditation.
Mornings are started late, but not started late as previous weekends inside. I know that the early morning limits me from moving around as freely as I’d want and prevents me from putting on lights and watching TV while being active. So the only thing to do is sleep.
Squats are getting done! Four more days to go!
Day 295
There is nothing more than I love the most is playing games with my sons, and I had the time of my life doing that today.
Day 296
The cold is finally here, and it’s the best thing to wake up to in the early morning.
I’m taking a concise break from hyperbolic stretching and will return to that program soon. The squats are one day away from being done, and I am ecstatic!
Day 297
One hundred days of squats fucking done!
This was something I had never done or thought I would ever do. Knowing there is more than just the standard squat, I did eight hellish types that I will only work on progressing in the future.
Day 298
Taking a well-deserved rest to focus on what’s next.
I will continue with squats, this time Tabata style, which will only be for 30 days. Hyperbolic stretching will also continue, combining the front and side routines in one sitting.
My love/hate relationship with Core De Force is tense. I desperately need some sweat-busting bullshit without the instructors being on meth. I’ll take this time to evaluate the multiple fitness outlets that are at my disposal.
Day 299
Mornings are a roll of the dice. As the weather gets colder, the less I want to get up out of my warm blanket to do much of anything. The time that I would have to wake up without having to repeat myself endlessly to beings who should be able to function by now is a perk. A perk with uninterrupted coffee time.
Now that my 100 days of squats challenge has been completed, I’m moving on to a routine that can open up my hips better than the hyperbolic stretching is currently doing now. I will, at some point, continue hyperbolic stretching by adding it to my morning routine. A routine that now includes deep leg extensions with a strap.
At this point, everything is going exceptionally well. I am looking forward to the eventual improvements in my mobility.
Day 300
300 Days! I have been so engrossed in my other affairs that I’ve almost forgotten this assured milestone. I am so proud of myself for going this far and knowing I will go farther and still have original things to comment on and learn about this journey. It’s the only journal I’ve kept going and will keep going.
My bad habit is becoming expensive.
The nine head shops that have opened in my neighborhood are insane. A few months ago, I explored them all in one outing and procured some goods along the way. I have now become spoiled to prerolls and properly measured decadent chocolates as my weapon of peace. Today I went to do some light shopping that made the long walk bearable because of those previously mentioned prerolls.
The balance will be attained.