Come and Get It, For A Fee At Shaw Academy Connection
It has taken me a while to want to talk about this. Attempting to reflect on what I did with my time while at home with one and then eventually two children at home upsets me. In several ways.
There is no melancholy whatsoever toward my babies. The blame for my mental binding was my own; a manipulative and emotionally mute partner, alcohol abuse, lack of empathy from individuals who see no worth within me, and the loss of my Father paralyzed me. I found release at the bottom of bottles, masturbation, marijuana, movies, and Muay Thai. I sought help from my doctor and began taking antidepressants. Their edging me to talk to a therapist made the stubbornness in me scoff. What could someone who doesn’t know me assume how to help me? So I took questions, one by one, and started all over again.
To start all over again, I had to choose an occupation that I desired to be in and at the same time feel like it’s a necessary vocation. First, it was Medical Coding. Great industry if you love how unsympathetically fucked up the American Health Care System is. There was too much liability on the coder, and the communication system within the industry umbrella is a shit show.
Second, I wanted to be a Forensic Pathologist. Forensics was a long-time dream of mine, stemmed from my marathon viewings of the Autopsy HBO TV series with Dr. Michael Baden. It is a field that fascinates me and will never become obsolete. I had to take a hard pass when it would take me for-fucking-ever to net out one of our fish from our aquarium.
I hit a wall at this point. I had no idea what the hell else to do with my time. At this point, I began to spiral down again. Up at all hours of the night, I was watching TV, drinking, and smoking. Under my many layers, I keep almost every waking moment industrious with bullshit.
One of the many walking Apps that I’ve had on my phone brought upon an offer from an online education provider for selecting a course with three months free and a certified diploma in the field of your choosing. Okay, instantly, I thought *BULLSHIT*. I try to be cautious with the seedy seas the internet can be, so I looked into it and leisurely took my time to continue with the process of signing up. There wasn’t much they offered Touring the website, and I almost changed my mind on the whole thing. I wasn’t having a damn thing going on with my life at the time so, I did it. I went all in.
To date, I am proficient in Blogging, Content Marketing, and Vlogging, Creative Writing, and Project Management. The other courses they offer are all eligible to gain a certified diploma.
I am very proud of my Creative Writing diploma most of all because it awakened something within me that I had long forgotten; my absolute love of reading and sometimes writing. My teen years were spent with the daylight hours reading fanfiction, writing fanfiction, and watching movies, all in my lonesome. This course helped me reflect on my past as an attempted writer and focus on what kind of style of writing I want to pursue. In this process, I found a friend who gave me a hard push in that direction, all without even knowing it. The Howling Man will forever be my favorite book. With my teeth clenched and with your eyes before me I can endure anything: distance, anxiety, worry, letternessless. I love you, always. And actually it’s not at all you I love, but rather the existence you have bestowed on me. (That’s Kafka. Sorry Charles B. You have created some great works, but Kafka was about getting in them guts.)
In 2020, Shaw Academy’s website wasn’t all that well put together, if I’m honest. It was a virtual version of the actual college I attended, and it gave me bad vibes. But once I began the Project Management course, it wasn’t bad at all. I learned tons of information in each lesson, and the lecturers were very professional and well-informed, providing assignments (multiple choice questions) at the end of every two lessons. With a final assignment at the end of the module to gain a diploma at the end. All of this on your own time. Flexible hours and days are what’s the best about the site because somedays get busy with everyday life occurrences. I have restarted modules many times to complete them at a later time eventually.
Well, after my 3-month tour, I wanted to continue learning anything I could. Alas, tucked away in my spam folder was an offer from Shaw for a lifetime membership for an insanely low price. Currently, some of the courses offered are redundant. Not quite out of place but not entirely in place in terms of organization. I have the drive to complete a great deal of the courses above. I have also quit a few that I didn’t list.
So be on the lookout, folks for a tarot card reading screenplay writing project manager in your town!
I will try my best to check in on this topic from time to time. It is an experience and one that I found to be an acclimating way of learning when you’re either just busy or like to keep busy and want to learn something new that takes just enough of your attention to not be exhausting.
Here is the link to Shaw Academy, for your consideration