This Book Has Worms In It!: Girls and Boys By Dennis Kelly

How could be a way for someone to be rid of me? In an unthinkable scenario, as a mother. As a woman.

I wanted to conclude my night with a show on Investigation Discovery called “1990s: The Deadliest Decade” on a night like any other. To quote, “It journeys back in time to recount 90s murder investigations through the lens of nostalgia. It’s a spell that is quickly broken by shocking murders like an affair that started in an AOL chatrooms to a homegrown terrorism plot.”

Well, one story, in particular, showed me my possible “How.” To keep it short, a foreboding mother-in-law stages the horrific death to shame and get her grandchildren from a Mother who no longer wanted to be in union with her son but could not because of an outstanding marital debt. I could not believe the similarities. Since my viewing, I have accepted that as a possibility. As sad and disgusting as it was, no one is immune to depravities-even the survivors.

A monologue that I recently listened to on Amazon called “Girls & Boys” made me think that there isn’t only one way my death could occur. The characters are beautifully shaped before our eyes. They’re just as confused and frustrated about their lives at points shared contextually; being the best being you can be to satisfy yourself can be a daily challenge.

It begins with the character experiencing “love at first sight” and ends with a harsh reality that makes the “Why” I haven’t brought up because it is such a hard pill to swallow. It’s a short listen, and so very, very well done that I urge you to listen to it. It was to be something I didn’t see coming. Which I sometimes hate to admit when I try to talk about a work I’ve listened to, how could I not put the clues together before it concludes? So I will warn you, there are deaths involved.

I’ve been thinking a lot about death. And when I do, I think about blame. I blame myself, and I’m the only one who is the cause of my own death. My face, body, my mind. All will be the death of me somehow. Someday, somewhere, somebody will want me dead.

You can find Girls and Boys on Audible
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