Exorcising Demons With ID! Days 551 to 600

Day 551

No exercise today because I’ll be getting an 8+ hour workout sitting on my fat ass.

Today is the first day of a long journey to Virginia, and I’m taking the train. It’s mostly for the kids since they’re casualties in the war of their father’s Hodophobia. It pains me that this is the case, but I’m glad to say it will be without him. I’m sure they and I will have fun, regardless!

Day 552

After getting in later than expected to VA, we started our day early on Virginia Beach’s tourist strip in the middle of a heat wave. There was really no getting around it. Eating cool things and playing inside was the best way to stay cool.

First, we all had breakfast in the hotel restaurant. It wasn’t anything to write home about, but we ate! The number of shops was numerous and echoed each other in merchandise, so there really weren’t any hard decisions to make. Water was essential, and we had plenty on us until the sun became less harsh in the late afternoon. The boys had a good time at the arcade and had Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream. I played large jackpot games and won $32 in scratch-off games. Later, we had the best burgers and fries at a spot a few doors down from our hotel. And later, the boys and I went to the beach and played in the sand. Finally, we enjoyed the water the way we were meant to, without reservation. I had a great time with them and want to have many more while they’re young.

We have to start early tomorrow, heading back to the train home.

Day 553

Of all the hotels in Virginia Beach, we definitely did not stay at the shittiest one. There was no turn-down service, meaning our beds remained undone unless we stayed for more than two days. I didn’t mind this, but it’s the sort of thing most people are used to when they go on vacation. Two doors down was a Hilton, where I bet you’d get that without even asking. The floors were dirty, and the overall look was satisfactory. Being there for only a few days was worth the soft bed, working air conditioner, and beachfront balcony. We skimped in the souvenir department, which could be chalked up to heat exhaustion. I wanted to play mini golf and go to the aquarium, but the day before was a lot. Before the summer is through, we could get to do those things too.

This is the first time I’ve used Uber too! They were very smooth processes, and glad it all worked out fine. The long train ride and travel back home is not something I’m looking forward to, but knowing I have a home to go back to is reason enough.

Day 554

My Spirit Journey Formation Anniversary is here, and 38 bells have chimed in my honor. I got a text and a call from the love of my life first thing in the morning! Family and friends followed soon after. I had to tell my oldest because I knew their father wouldn’t even mention anything to them or say anything to me. I’m not bothered by him, but he is a terrible example to his sons. It’s my job, at present, to teach them better.

Today will be spent doing what I always do. Cleaning this and that, watching that and this, and then having a laugh later in the evening with my friends and love bug. I didn’t get myself a cake, so I’ll make cinnamon rolls. It’s just as good.

Day 555

Well, I got the best surprise of all surprises! Kenny secretly guest-appeared on my birthday torture episode last night, and it was the best thing anyone has ever done for me. We had fun talking about the terrible movies I had to see, and he endured the torture with me! It was a great day because I did me and a great night because I got to spend it with friends.

Today is the usual lazy Sunday that I like to have. Sleeping late and chatting with my baby. He’s working so hard, and we’re on the right path to meeting each other halfway. Since I began working, I still need to get my footing at work to see where I am at saving for the future. More time must pass in that department, but I have it under control.

Day 556

Back at it again! This stands for a number of things.

I took a break from exercising since going away last week. Not that it makes any difference. The most I did was sit on my ass while on the train, but I made up for it by walking a lot on the tourist strip by the beach. Getting back to my European Smile Queen was fun. I didn’t sweat as much since I am taking a break from strenuous cardio for the moment to build on stamina and other parts of my body that need the workout and not as much toning. After I’ve done all the 40+ videos, I’ll get back on another challenge that will get me additional results in the lower half of my body that I’m looking for.

I also began another book after finishing the one I started on the travel back to New York. It was a quick, short read of one of my top-listed favorite movies. Now I’ve gone back to a huge favorite of mine by Grady Hendrix that I’m reading for the 3rd time. He has this way of writing about women that I really admire.

With my mini vacation over, today was back to work, and it was work. What else can I say? I take it all in stride. I’m still learning how to operate tasks and get around my duties. I am satisfied there, and I hope I get to stay there for a considerable duration.

Tomorrow will be more of the same, just under the title of Tuesday.

Day 557

Another day, another dollar.

I dream more and more of winning the lottery. I think about what I’d be doing with my time, contemplating how happiness feels. I’ve been waking up just a little tired for the past few days. I know where that stems from. In honesty, fixing that is only possible if my lottery dream comes true.

I am very happy at this moment in time about a number of things. I still have bad days that transform into bad moments and disappear. Since my birthday torture movies, I’ve wanted to watch a movie for a while now. Tonight feels like the night to do that.

Day 558

Hump days should be for humping and not symbolize the middle of the week.

I’ve got some things going on physically, and I know where they came from. What sucks is that I can’t stop what I’m doing on a daily basis for them to heal properly. The balance will come.

Day 559

What a tiring day!

I am for it. I’m for it all. I’ll take this word for it:

“Your inner voice is trying to communicate with you, but you are blocking it out with your daily grind. Reality is jagged, so soften the blow by taking the time to listen to your own wisdom. Be brave enough to set your own example. Narcissus got a bad rep. Practice self-devotion through reflection.

This month, your sense of well-being relies on your willingness to curb your tendency to embody the public face of a superhero. This is a commendable move for someone who creates a structure to feel safe. Be there for yourself, even when you fall short.

The general theme of your life during this period is to materialize your spiritual ideas. Taking a leap of faith is always more useful than exploding a grenade and hoping for the best.”

Things are happening. Very good things.

Day 560

Fridays should come with a warning: the feelings of this day can be fleeting, so don’t go all hard.

Although I have shorter days, on purpose, at my job doesn’t mean it’s the day I look forward to the most. The less time spent at work, the better, but it’s fleeting.

I woke up in an odd state. I had a strange ache in my head that I could not keep my eyes open for too long. I slept until 5:30 and did not exercise. The added hour didn’t put me at 100%, but my day was okay. I functioned at my usual pace and learned new things in the process.

Day 561

It’s good that the weekend is here because my body needed the reset. And that’s all I did.

Day 562

It’s good I gave my body a rest yesterday because I fucked it up today. Well, I planned it. I had to get rid of those damn bottles, so a trip was made. With a short list, I knew I’d take forever if I brought the kids along.

I got a workout, and that’s all that counts.

Day 563

Time to begin another work week!

The exercises are back in action and not making me sweat as much as I did in the past. That can be fixed if I want to fix it. I need to focus more on my food intake rather than on how intense my work needs to be to counter it. I will need to consider this in the near future.

Day 564

It’s getting easier to wake up with the extra hour of sleep I get each night. I mean, it used to be a great 8 hours straight, but it’s hard to go to bed at 8 when you don’t have a bed that’s accessible at that hour. I’ll begin to improvise when I know I’ll get to sleep early.

Today I got the idea to make something new and gave someone a new idea. The word of the day is: new.

Day 565

Today was a “do you” hump day.

I did not work out because I wanted more time to sleep. Nothing crazy, just 45 more minutes. The rest is good. I’ll get back on that bullshit tomorrow.

Day 566

This morning’s excuse was “just fucking sleep.” I will be satisfied in that department. I did lots of walking, as per usual. It was a great day sans working out.

Day 567

Fuck it, Friday!

Yeah, nothing got done except the work I put in every day in other things. It’s not as dismal as I’m making it sound. The routine was below my ability, so with that, I found another playlist to work off of. That will begin on Monday. The weekend will be for something compared to what relaxation is.

Day 568

Today, I’ve realized I have been afraid for some time. Woke up early for a movie date and now tackling the joys of being a parent. I always have endless lists that I work off of. I get fed in more ways than one. It all never stops.

One big breath in, then a deeper one. Hold. Exhale. Repeat until it all ends.

Day 569

The best rest I get is on days like these. It’s fleeting because I need to do things that take up a lot of time, and I’d want to avoid doing things. I know I tote on a lot about balance and all that shit, and I do balance things out. I don’t think I piss ginger ale, but I’m loved, wanted, and needed at all times. It’s okay. I’m okay with that as long as I am taken care of.

Day 570

No fucking shit, it’s Monday.

I did the thing! Now I’m back at squats. She didn’t go crazy, and neither did I. It’s a short playlist, but I want to see if I can do two rotations of it.

The other half of the day was okay. I got to leave work early, but I still had work to do.

Day 571

Getting used to the strain I’ve recently put on my body has been challenging. I needed to change my life to move forward, and I am, but my mind feels like it’s dying. I can’t think straight, mainly because I’ve been overloaded with new tasks that are expected to be perfected no matter what scenario happens to occur. It’s what I’d expect: the petty side of the work environment. I’m continuing learning and taking it all in stride.

The 2nd day of the smiling workout mime was good. I had no issues. Since it’s around that time, bloating is fucking me up. Meh, it’s nothing new. Push, push, push.

Day 572

Great workout this morning. I had more than a pep in my step, so that got me out and about earlier than usual. I just had to go!

Day 573

Mixed it up today with something a little different that had no squats. It was mostly concentrated arm movements and the usual knee raises. One more day until I rest and restart it again on Monday.

Day 574

Thunder was my alarm clock this morning, and it was the right time to do what needed to be done before the long day ahead. The last few months, I’ve had a hard time figuring out how far I want to go as far as the shape of my body. New clothes are loose; old clothes are tight. For now, the issue of only being able to wash and not dry in the house is as frustrating as ever. The never-ending issues confront me now that the things I want in life are coming together. I’ll figure it all out soon enough.

Day 575

Getting more sleep on weekends is not a good thing to do, but damn, it feels good.

It’s for my own good that I don’t exercise on the weekends, in general, for the time being. I’ve done so much to reach my size, and it’s been steady. I keep decreasing sizes steadily, and my body has a bit more to go. Besides, I move around enough during these days to emulate the weekday routine.

Day 576

Gotten a good rest this morning to start a steady day of tasks. I want to be still enough to watch a movie today after reading. I’ve never wanted to read so badly in my life!

Day 578

My first day with 3 cups of cafe bustelo in me in public was the reason my day was A DAY.

Exercise was a special set of movements that were compilations of children’s desperate need for attention to perform nonsense. I be sweatin though.

Day 579

I did not get the fuck up this morning.

I could have. I really wasn’t that tired. But shit, I’m allowed. I made up for it big time on the walk to work. I left late and still wanted to make time. So I sped and walked to the store, all the while playing music from my phone’s speaker. It was a cool morning, and I still ended up sweating like a stuck pig. Damn.

Try again tomorrow.

Day 580

I did not get the fuck up this morning again.

This was just for shits and giggles, I’m not gonna lie. I don’t feel I need it right now. I walk hardcore in the morning to work and am beginning to feel stressed from the walking and the sitting. I try to get up as much as possible, but sometimes it isn’t easy.

My nights feel so short. My days are the right length. I’m not in any energy funk.

Day 581

Today was a mix of ‘rest more’ and ‘your sinuses are pieces of shit’ kind of morning. I had a sinus headache for most of the day. Aspirin did help some. I have nothing to say, but what a busy day! I’m still a decent weight, and my water intake is slowing, but it’s nothing crazy.

Day 582

This week wasn’t the week. I’ll consider doing this from now on. A few days or a week off from working out. I do so much during the day that it makes sense to put it into practice. I am going to start a zone regimen. Every month, I’ll do a different part. Arms, abs, legs. Whatever. I don’t know. I just thought of it. I’m just writing it down so I’ll remember. What am I saying? I’m not going to re-read any of this! Whatever I end up doing, know I’m going to look hot as fuck.

The weekend is here to come and go. And I’m ALL IN.

Day 583

The one thing I wanted to do the most today was an impossible feat.

I’m not mad that I no longer have time to sleep as long as I want. Even when I had the chance, I only took it for a few reasons. The weekend should reward you for getting up late and taking time. I couldn’t take my time in the first part of the day.

I did this and that. Tomorrow will be the cooking and getting ready for the weekday I love so much.

Day 584

This was a busy on-my-feet day. It’s what I wanted, after all.

I prepared my meals and rested up for the All In event watch party with my love. It was so much fun to see the one true sport, in its spectacle, performed by dedicated individuals who do what they love doing.

Day 585

Back on it! Let’s see how long this lasts, lol.

I began with something short and all squatting. I don’t need to go as extreme as I used to because, in the beginning, I was fighting to slim down at all costs. Now, I know how to protect myself and not push too hard. The videos are a touch shorter and focus on the legs for the time being. I’ll take it. I’ll take all of it.

Day 586

Nope. Not today.

It wasn’t entirely on purpose. I wanted something to reward myself for my calm attitude yesterday evening. It would have had me fucking reeling if it were a different time in my life; I honestly believe that. Everything went great, so I got an extra hour of sleep. I need to get back on squats for obvious, painful reasons. It’s like I need to do at least five squats a day not to be sore from doing squats for an extended period. I aim to get some flat chicken wing thighs, and I’m not fucking around in that department.

Tomorrow, we will have squats in the chat.

Day 587

Whelp.

I did what I did for a good reason. I am finally listening to my body and not rushing into things. I will exercise again this week. Maybe tomorrow. Nothing is holding me back, but the past few days have been painful for my quads, ankles, and feet. I can only put them up after I come in from work. Sometimes I have to cook. Other times, I want to be alone or talk on the phone, but I cannot. Or don’t want to fall asleep on the couch lol. I have the tools to soothe them out. Having a pair of hands on me would be better.

Day 588

What am I about to say? You won’t win any prizes of any kind if you guess correctly.

It just wasn’t in the cards today. It was a long one, anyway. Trying to find things to do took much work mentally. Tomorrow is shorter. Even though it is the last of the year, it will be interesting.

Day 589

Even with enough sleep, I wanted more like blood to a vampire.

No working out was performed for most of this entire week. I didn’t want to. I still get work in either way. All day. Every day. The Labor Day weekend will be as soft a velvet penis as usual. It gives me the time to do whatever, whenever.

Day 590

The three-day weekend started with the fun of inoculation and immense food shopping. It’s best that it all gets done now and not later when the edibles have completely taken over my mind. I get to spend some time with my kids. The most since I began working.

Day 591

Another day of washing and cooking, all before the shit begins again. Shit being work and school. I don’t hate working, but I look forward to the day when I do what I love with the people I love every day.

Day 592

Last day until I do it all over again.

There is more cooking and cleaning to look forward to. Hopefully, I can squeeze in a movie before the end of the day to make this weekend even better than it was. I got to watch wrestling with my love, and it was so enjoyable. Can’t get enough of that action.

Day 593

There is nothing like coming off a 3-day weekend to get you up and ready to workout after putting it off for over a collective week.

I’ve been slacking. But this isn’t the end. Time whipped its dick out and is constantly slapping me in the face, dominating in making it clear I don’t have it and never will gain upon it, for now. It’s all in the mind. When I have my shit together better once this week or a few weeks instead, pass. I’m beginning to get that side from my Father that I couldn’t understand when I was younger. I’m taking less bullshit and taking more command in executing my agenda. It’s simple, just don’t fuck around and find out.

Day 594

I had the best sleep I have had in a long time last night.

It gave me zero inspiration to get up and do a version of Dena Rizzo’s hip-hop dance lessons for my OnlyFans. I had better things to do, like staring at the ceiling, processing how to swallow saliva, working up the strength to get up to pee, and then drinking a liter of water. The madness of being.

I have a lot of shit on my paper plate.

Today, I could have had my do my thing, but I did my thing. I do my thing every fucking day. But tonight ends with ice cream.

Day 595

Sleep came easy last night. Waking up wasn’t hard to do either.

I had moments where I could have made a move to move, but my mind was very busy doing some working out on its own. It was a hectic day, as usual in my world. Sweating happened. Lots of it to last a few days.

I picked a good time to stop doing edibles.

Day 596

Waking up has been easier for the past few days.

My sleep schedule contributes to this. I can go to bed by ten most nights, but I leave room on other days to sleep later. Hey! Maybe that’s what I’ll do from now on. I’ll work out on the days I go to sleep early the previous night and take a rest on nights I stay up late. That shouldn’t happen very often. The sleeping late, I mean. It’s just an idea.

I am okay to take an extended break from some physical activity. Focusing on my arms and legs will be what I start with. I have the Squats App and can figure something out with my arms again. I can’t go crazy like in the past. Then again, it’s best to start it now; I got next summer in the bag to look and be ripped and a size 10. I’m fucking doing it. Nobody’s gonna stop me!

Day 597

Not sure of all the tasks I need to do this weekend, but one thing is for sure: I am going to get some sleep.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. It’s always fucking sleep.

I got some of it until I couldn’t take it anymore. We’ve had a bad time with yellow jackets lately, so combating them has been a full-time job. Cleaning outside is easy, just done more carefully. The work I got done had me drenched along with the high humidity in the air that was ready for a storm later in the afternoon. All in all, a lot got done. More to follow tomorrow.

Day 598

Last night was my first late night in a while.

I watched the first half of Babayaga Vs. The World 4, and I loved how it all comes together. I couldn’t sit through it all, or I would have gone to bed late. I made up for it in the morning by getting up way later than anticipated. I had a long day preparing and cooking my lunch for the week. Aside from that, I had to help once again with the bees. It almost fucked up my evening plans, but I was able to get it all done and show up for my movie date.

Now, all I have to look forward to is another week of it all. This time without feeling.

Day 599

No exercise was done today. I do need to get back into it, and I will soon. I will continue with BurpeeGirl and probably do that 30-day challenge once again. That was good. It’s all up to me now.

Not a long day today, but lots are going to be done.

Day 600

Not gonna lie, I almost slept in today.

There really wasn’t any reason not to, but now I wake up early to want to leave early. With the house gross and moist from the rain, I want to leave it now more than ever. I don’t feel comfortable exerting myself when the temperature feels close to the 80s indoors. Although I want them gains, I have to go about this sensibly. I’m keeping an eye on things in the mirror, and my fupa looks tired. I’m happy for now if you are.